Open Wide Big Mouth

I need to permanently have a foot inserted into my mouth, and into my brain for that matter because its not just about what comes out of your mouth but where it originates from in your thoughts. I, Katie, have a problem: it's called arrogance and judgment. It's been on my mind a lot and I need to set it straight. All too often lately I have looked at other people and there lives and looked the other way thinking I was better than them.......well, REALITY CHECK TO KATIE: I am NOT better than anybody else and God is trying to wham that in my face big time!
James 2: ¹My brothers, as believers in our glorious Lord Jesus Christ, don't show favoritism. ²Suppose a man comes into your meeting wearing a gold ring and fine clothes, and a poor man in shabby clothes also comes in. ³If you show special attention to the man wearing fine clothes and say, "Here's a good seat for you," but say to the poor man, "You stand there" or "Sit on the floor by my feet," ⁴have you not discriminated among yourselves and become judges with evil thoughts?
James 3:¹Not many of you should presume to be teachers, my brothers, because you know that we who teach will be judged more strictly. ²We all stumble in many ways. If anyone is never at fault in what he says, he is a perfect man, able to keep his whole body in check.³When we put bits into the mouths of horses to make them obey us, we can turn the whole animal. ⁴Or take ships as an example. Although they are so large and are driven by strong winds, they are steered by a very small rudder wherever the pilot wants to go. ⁵Likewise the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. ⁶The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.⁷All kinds of animals, birds, reptiles and creatures of the sea are being tamed and have been tamed by man, ⁸but no man can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison. ⁹With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. ¹⁰Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be. ¹¹Can both fresh water and salt^a]">[a] water flow from the same spring? ¹²My brothers, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water.

Yup, how about that for a whamy, so from now on I declare myself equal, no better no less. We are all sinners in Gods eyes. I have no right to judge one person for sinning and think badly of them. God did not appoint me judge of the world, that is His job, and quite frankly I'm relieved that it is His job, could you imagine? what a headache :( What I need to remember is that people are not saved by damnation or condemnation; people come to the Lord through grace and love, something that I have been lacking to show others. So again I realize my faults and will try to learn from them and press toward the mark.

My Daughter's Grace

So this morning I awoke to my daughter wanting me to go in and turn her over to play at 5:45 this morning. At this time in the morning I am not, nor will I ever claim to be in a good mood. So I turned her over, gave her her medicine and went back to bed. Luckily my husband hadn't left for work yet so he pitched in a hand to entertain her for about half an hour. By then Makenzie decided she was hungry and started fussing, and at that point I had no choice but to get up. Now she is going through a spell where she is hungry but every time I give her her bottle she starts crying (I think she is started teething) so my lack of sleep took hold of me and I yelled at her.... yup, I did. I felt horrible and I went in my room and cried. It's not the first time it's happened, and probably wont be the last. I felt like there was no reason in the world that little girl deserved that and I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die because of my guilt. However, when I pulled myself together and came back out, she was all smiles for me. It was like nothing happened, and to her there was nothing in the world better than her mommy. It just made me realize I do this way too often,.... not to her, but to God. How many times in my life have I screamed at him, and yet when I compose myself He is right there waiting, smiling and loving me again. This morning I saw just a brief glimpse of the grace of God in my daughters reaction to me. She teaches me so many things every day and she doesn't even know it. I am by no means a perfect parent, or daughter, or anything, but through these small reminders from God I carry on, trying not to look back at my faults but look forward to what God has for me, and everyday I strive to be better for Him, for my daughter, and my husband.

Girls Vs. Boys

Many people tend to argue which is better, a girl or a boy? As I think about this (deciding what gender of child I will want next [ha! likes it's a choice]), there are a few points to ponder such as girls you can dress up in the most tear-provokingly cute dresses and sandels with little flower hats and bracelets; however we come to a little problem when it comes to changing diapers. You see poop burrows into crevasses of which little girls have many. When that happens your husband graciously shys away from the duty of diaper changing and suddenly has to go do something important and you get stuck with crevice duty. On the opposite side, little boys do have cute clothes but most definetly not as cute as little girls, and you can take them fishing and not hear complaining about bugs. I'm just not so sure I'm sold on the whole energy thing though, however little girl whines are rather awful. I guess I will just have to have a boy next and figure it out for myself.

Now that I'm a Mommy.... (Caution: Incredible Amounts of Ranting)

I think that I have the right to my OWN mothers day, but I didn't :(
BJ had to work, I felt poop-like, and my mother-in-law wanted me to make her a cake for mothers day (which I don't mind doing other than it took forever!!! ) I didn't make it to church which was the ONE thing I wanted to do that day, but I did get to take Kenzie to Build-A-Bear and make a bear for her......but then I found out that we had a whole dollar to our bank account, hmmm.... God will provide, that what I just have to keep saying.... so not only did I feel sick, tired , but also guilty because I just had to have that build a bear for her :( So today I call a re-do! Bj is off of work today, kenzie is taking an incredible nap, my house is somewhat clean and I refuse to let myself worry too much about bills.......... TODAY IS MOMMY DAY 2, AND I WILL HAVE A GOOD DAY DARN IT!!!!

Those Darn Security Letters.........

Well, let me just say that I thought, oh what a good idea to set up a blog, since everyone and their brother is doing it....with the exception of me. Supposedly it's supposed to be so easy a baby can do it, however; it is apparently not so easy a Katie can do it because after three failed attempts at entering the security validation code I was way beyond ready to give up. That was when I realized that as smart as I may be sometimes, I never fail to amuse myself by my incapability to overcome the supposedly "easy" tasks in life. At least I can laugh at myself, because if I didn't have that, then I am quite sure I would give up on all the daily tasks in life. This makes me ponder another question, what would happen if I decided to give up on all daily tasks of my life? Hmmm.... I think I can pretty much sum that up in a very short list:
1- Baby poop EVERYWHERE!!!!!
2- Formula powder caked onto every nook and cranny of my counter
3- Screaming child

..........well, well, well, lets just agree that it's a good thing I don't give up every time I stupify myself :)